fools_love

Sun, 23 Sep 2007 06:21:32 GMT

Dear Sweet Baby Jesus-

So, I sold my soul for a pair of shoes today, sweet baby Jesus. Yeah, I know I'm gonna go to hell for it, but, whatever, what can you do, right lil' baby Jesus? Oh well, I figure I'll be going to hell soon enough, so whatever, in all honesty.

Right. Here sweet baby Jesus, this is what I sold my soul for. Are you proud of me?

Gosh, they're so pretty. I'm in utter love. Yep yep. Screw pain, that's the point of fashion, right?

Apparently these are my "ideal" jobs. What do you think?

Tue, 18 Sep 2007 03:00:05 GMT

1.Desktop Publisher
2.Cartoonist / Comic Illustrator
3.Fashion Designer
4.Animator
5.Costume Designer
6.Set Designer
7.Anthropologist
8.Graphic Designer
9.Artist
10.Activist
11.Writer
12.Critic
13.Print Journalist
14.Translator
15.Medical Illustrator
16.Industrial Designer
17.Communications Specialist
18.Computer Animator
19.Public Policy Analyst
20.Interior Designer
21.Criminologist
22.Chiropractor
23.Massage Therapist
24.Hairstylist
25.Taxidermist
26.Psychologist
27.Child and Youth Worker
28.Special Effects Technician
29.Sport Psychology Consultant
30.Makeup Artist
31.Genetic Counselor
32.Art / Music Therapist
33.Nurse Practitioner
34.Esthetician
35.Sign Maker
36.Hospital Service Worker
37.Acupuncturist
38.Recreation Therapist
39.Actor
40.Nurse

All Growed Up

Thu, 06 Sep 2007 07:47:00 GMT

look ma, i'm a big kid now!

Fri, 03 Aug 2007 06:19:34 GMT

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

She said "Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And, I find myself trying to stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,
So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

You know the place where you used to live,
Used to barbecue up burgers and ribs,
Used to have a little party every Halloween with candy by the pile,
But now, you only stop by every once and a while,
Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find that you have something to say,
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For why you're not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you've got 'til it's gone,
I guess I've had it with you and your career,
When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it...

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...

Tue, 10 Jul 2007 20:18:48 GMT

True or False?

What makes you beautiful? -pics-

What makes you beautiful is your mysterious ways. You don't really mean to be though of as mysterious it just happens. You're very shy and that drives people crazy, because they just want to get to know you. Some people say it's bad to be shy but it's ever-so beautiful on you. You tend to try to hide yourself from the public-eye. You seem like you're modest about you're inner beauty. Alot of people envy you... because... You're just beautiful!
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A Crossroad, If You Will

Sun, 08 Jul 2007 02:52:15 GMT

I find myself standing at a crossroad, like everyone else my age seems to be doing.

But whatever.

Sooooooo............

Sat, 12 May 2007 03:59:28 GMT

Basically Grayson and I are the coolest duo ever.

Who else steals from the salvation army other than us??

Yay dorm moving out day! Yay for stupid idiots throwing out awesome stuff!

This is what happens when i get bored...

Tue, 01 May 2007 08:06:30 GMT

Yay! bf and I had a shaving party. He had a beard for about a week, because I begged him to keep it. He was just so darn cute with it, all scruffy and such. Anywhoo.... We had a shaving party, which then in turn, turned into a hair party! Here are some of the cool shots I got...

i like that one....

there are others, but I'm tired. I'll maybe post some later...

Sat, 21 Apr 2007 08:50:39 GMT

men suck.

Sun, 15 Apr 2007 00:52:59 GMT

oooowwwie...... stupid sunburns!

sighs

Mon, 09 Apr 2007 07:55:51 GMT

you know... I don't really regret a lot of things in my life. Like sitting in my crappy dorm room, which now smells remotely like italian dressing, all hot because coconino has centralized heating/cooling, I still don't regret much. Okay, maybe I regret eating that salad with italian dressing for dinner, but i think that's about it!

Anyways, there are things that I don't really talk about anymore. Whenever I talk about highschool with Grayson I basically gloss over so many parts, with the exception of my memories with tori. Then again, it's normally the same story. We go get lunch. We eat too much. We get sick. But there are also so many other memories of tor that I tell Grayson about. Sometimes, I think I annoy him with my stories of Victoria, but I can't help it... She's really one of the few people that I miss from high school.

On Saturday he and I hiked Mt. Lemmon, and we actually found the prison camp. It was definately a big accomplishment, seeing as how the first time we went hiking, we couldn't find the trail, and as a result, just wound up walking in a circle. But we found it, and I was definately excited about that. But on the way back we wound up talking about how his old swing dance partner from high school (who's still in high school) asked Grayson if he could take her to prom. I couldn't help but laugh... hard. I seriously had to stop in the middle of the hike back to the car, to laugh uncontrollably. I'm not going to lie. Prom was definately an "iffy" event for me. I mean, it wasn't terrible, but it wasn't fantastic either. Grayson and I both agree that today's whole "grinding" love affair, is something very un-prom-esque. I remember all the hip hop and rap music at my prom. It wasn't something that suited my personality. Granted, I never was a "grinder" and I don't intend on being a grinder anytime soon. I just remember all the people who were grinding, and seriously, to this day, I still cringe at the mental pictures which will be forever stuck in my memory. Yuck.

I never really realized how much I liked hiking until I started hiking with Grayson. The first time I had hiked in Phoenix was when I hiked with Ben to the top of Squaw Peak. That was definately not fun. At all. But Grayson and I have done some pretty cool hikes. I think my favorite (albeit, most difficult) hike was a trail called "Soldier's Trail". It was basically a straight vertical hike up for about half an hour, followed by a lot more vertical hiking with brief lapses of horizontal walking. I swear, my quads/thighs were killing me after that hike. But it was totally worth it, mostly due in part to the fact that the end of our hike, we wound up on this cliff that was like 50 feet down. We wound up going down the cliff, and it honestly felt like we were the only peoople in the world...

So Grayson is doing theatre stuff most nights nowadays. It's not that bad, but I do miss him. A bit. I guess that's kind of a stupid thing to say, but I can't help but miss him. There is just something about Grayson that I truly care about, and not seeing him as much as I'd like does make me sad. But I'm not going to complain, mostly because I should be glad that I get to spend some time with him. He asked me earlier tonight (actually... It was at like 11pm) whether it upsets me that he's so busy. It don't upset me so much, but more like makes me a little sad, because I truly enjoy his company. Oh well, it's good for me, because summer is going to be coming up pretty soon, and he'll be in Chicago, and then I couldn't see him even if I really wanted to.

Oh and finally.....

I got a Haircut last Saturday!

Grayson got one on Friday....

And here's hiking photos which I like:

and my personal favorite hiking photo:

Yay! The end.

Thu, 29 Mar 2007 07:01:31 GMT

My doggy died.

:'(

English 109 H paper. YAY!!

Tue, 27 Mar 2007 00:52:16 GMT

Locations and Potential for Harvesting Stem Cells

Stem cells. These two simple words tend to strike a plethora of different emotions for people. Many people consider using stem cells harvested from embryonic fetuses unethical and inhumane, while others believe that stem cells can ameliorate certain medical conditions. The controversy over stem cell harvesting has cast a cloud over the potential that stem cells have to better the human race. Many people believe that the only place to harvest stem cells is from embryonic fetuses. However, this concept does not ring true. Stem cells can be found in numerous locations in the human body, no matter what age, embryonic or elderly. These stem cells can be found in the liver, bone marrow as well as a great deal of other sources, and can be utilized to create new cells such as bone, to new organ tissue, as well as nose cartilage and ears. No matter what position people may have, one thing consistently remains true; stem cells have the potential to help the human race in ways hardly imaginable.

Stem cells contain the potential of creating new life, better lives for people who are in need. Be it, new liver cells or skin for skin grafts, stem cells hold the secrets to creating these cells as well as so many others. When stem cells were first harvested, controversy sprung up due in part to the fact that most of the stem cells were harvested from embryonic fetuses found in abortion clinics. However, as time passes, stem cells have been found on the human body, and can potentially be extracted from living human beings, rather than posthumous extraction. One major finding of stem cells in the human body was discovered by Hidemi Hattori from the Division of Biomedical Engineering at the University of Tokai. He discusses an alternative to bone marrow-derived mesenchymal stem cells (BMSC): human adipose tissue-derived stem cells (ATSC). Hattori, in his research discusses the nature of BMSC, and how they produce a very small amount of stem cells. However, Hattori continues with his research stating, “Human adipose tissue obtained by liposuction was processed to obtain a fibroblast-like population or adipose tissue derived-stromal cells” (Hattori 2). This helps to show that mass amounts stem cells, which are also known under the name of stromal cells, can be obtained through liposuction, while the patient is merely under local anesthesia. In Hattori’s lab experiment he exposed the typical form of stem cells (bone marrow-derived mensenchymal stem cells), as well as the adipose tissue-derived stem cells, to the same variables, and through this Hattori concluded that ATSC replicated at a much higher rate than that of the BMSC. Hattori expresses this theory by writing, “The results in this study show that ATSC possess a slightly higher ability to differentiate into osteoblasts” as well as by stating, “these findings, together with those of other studies further demonstrate that these cells may provide a novel and abundant autologous cell source for developing tissue engineering” (9). With these findings, scientists could potentially have found an unwavering source for obtaining stem cells in order to continue with their research. Since liposuction clinics can be readily found throughout the United States, as well as the rest of the world, scientists have found a simple and efficient way to gather stem cells, with minimal controversy. Another location where stem cells have been found has caused a stir of surprise amongst the scientific community: the liver.

For decades many scientists did not believe the liver to contain stem cells. Their reasoning behind this was due in part to the fact that the liver remains one of the most resilient organs in the human body, as well as in animals. One prime example of this would have to be when scientists removed up to 2/3 of a rat’s liver, and within two weeks, the liver was once again whole. The rat’s liver had replicated its’ cells and could still store vital nutrients and minerals as well as pumping out things such as bile (Travis 1829). John Travis, in his article “The Search for Liver Stem Cells Picks Up”, Travis discusses the benefits behind finding stem cells in the liver. He asserts that “liver stem cells may have the potential for gene therapy as well. One of the liver’s major functions is secreting proteins into the blood, and so genetically engineering liver cells to contain an active version of a defective gene might be a way of replacing a missing protein” (1829). This concept could help a great deal of people who are suffering from things such as hemophilia, as well as patients who are suffering from diabetes, a very common disease found in the United States, as well as in other parts of the world. If the stem cells found in the liver can be differentiated into things such as ducts which produce insulin, then patients suffering from diabetes could be permanently alleviated from having to continually depend on insulin shots as well as daily blood tests. Hemophilia, although not as common as diabetes, could also be cured through the use of stem cells found in the liver. Patients suffering from hemophilia lack a vital protein, which in turn helps to clot blood. If the stem cells found in the liver can create cells which make the necessary genetic code for the certain protein, then hemophiliacs can permanently be alleviated from their disease. Travis continues with his article by writing, “. . .a new argument has erupted among the researchers involved in the search. The question now dividing many is no longer whether stem cells exist but what is their exact role is in the liver” (1829). This just shows that there remains quite a great deal of information which has yet to be obtained about stem cells. Only time will tell of the potential behind stem cells, but with advancements and discoveries being made continually, perhaps the secrets behind the stem cells will become clearer for all of us to see.

As with all scientific endeavors, complications and difficulties must arise. This too, also rings true for stem cell research. Albeit, obtaining stem cells is no longer an issue, with discoveries of locations of stem cells being found all over the human body, but getting stem cells to differentiate into specific cells now remains the question continually alluding scientific researchers.

.............. yeah. i'm only like 1/5 of the way done. yay for 10-15 page papers!

I wish i could hang out with Grayson, but he's working on Tommy right now.... Poop.

oh grayson...

Thu, 08 Mar 2007 06:01:18 GMT

Mon, 26 Feb 2007 20:51:11 GMT

HOLY FUCK!!! HORRAY!!! YAY!!!

I get to live in Yavapai over the summer! HORRAY!

nothing better than free rent and a job! YAY!

Especially one of only 4 positions for the GSR role!!

HORRAY!!

Mon, 19 Feb 2007 04:22:57 GMT

The Priss
Deliberate Brutal Love Dreamer (DBLDf)

Mature. Responsible. Aristocratic. Excuse me. The Priss.

Prisses are the smartest of all female types. You're highly perceptive, and confident in your judgements. You'd take brutal honesty over superficiality any time--your friends always know where they stand with you. You're completely unfake. Don't tell me that's not a word. You're also excellent at redirecting internal negative energy.

These facts indicate people are often intimidated by you. They also fall for you, hard. You have a distant, composed allure that many find irresistible. If only more of them lived up to your standards.

Your exact opposite:
The Playstation

Random Gentle Sex Master

You were probably the last among your friends to have sex. And the first to pretend that you're pregnant. LOL. Though you're inclined to use sex as weapon, at least it's not as one of mass destruction. You're choosier than most about your partners. A supportive relationship is what you're really after. Whether you know it or not, you need something steady & long-term. And soothing.

ALWAYS AVOID: The Playboy, The Loverboy

CONSIDER: The Manchild

Link: The 32-Type Dating Test by OkCupid - Free Online Dating.

Thu, 15 Feb 2007 06:53:20 GMT

I got a betta for v-day.

he's pretty cool.

I'll post a picture eventually.

Grayson named him xavier.

since i named his white stuffed tiger brophy.

Hence, Brophy & Xavier...

hehe... get it?

nothing overy elaborate today.

Mongolian BBQ

Ferris Bhuler's day off...

now back at the dorm.

missing him.

LAME. >_<

Wed, 14 Feb 2007 07:05:19 GMT

Okay, for the first time in 18 years, I'm actually dating someone on valentines day (that is, if he doesn't you know... up and die or anything)

I'm not sure whether to be scared or excited or worried or enthralled or any of the other input adj. here feelings which girls are supposed to feel, you know?

He said i get to meet xavier tomorrow, which apparently is part of my present. I'm kinda suprised that he got me anything, especially since for christmas he picked up my present at the very last minute...

I'm kinda scared as to what he got me. Is that bad?

Not sure what we're going to do. Prolly just the usual. Maybe outback for dinner, since Mike is working tomorrow. Maybe then the drive in movie theatre, since we went for the first time on saturday, and it was pretty nifty. Or just wind up renting a movie and watching it back in the dorm.

We'll see what happens.

I still have cookies to bake tomorrow!

Good thing classes end at 1.

Oh, did i mention i have an individuals and societies test tomorrow that i didn't study for? Oh well.

Good night and Good luck!

BTW. It's 12:05 am. Happy valentine's day folks!

Tue, 13 Feb 2007 18:31:14 GMT

does anyone know how to get that gross overly chlorinated pool feeling out of hair?

I used conditioner, but my hair is still wicked dry and gross.

Mon, 12 Feb 2007 18:15:46 GMT

Spanish 201 test in t-minus...... 45 minutes.

Crap. I havn't studied in the slightest.

Okay, come on mary-ann... Get a grip! You can do this!

I'm so cool.

Yeah right.

Thu, 08 Feb 2007 18:02:07 GMT

Ugh.

I like college, but at the same time, I hate it.

off to shower, then spanish class.

ick. why am i taking 201? Am I just that stupid?

Had my RA interview on Monday. Think i did good.

Spent the night at Gray's.

Was pretty much just really depressed all night.

Had dinner with Riddell and Gray.

Nothing major.

Chicken Helper

Green Bean Casserole...

Right.

Shower.

I'm off.

Mon, 05 Feb 2007 06:16:17 GMT

things not to say at the beginning of an aim conversation:

______________: i was just looking at some pics of you
______________: and to be frank, i'm really hard now

Oh the life that i lead is oh so halarious!

and also:

break up or don't?

and finally:

I sold my soul to the devil.

I bought an ipod.

Tue, 30 Jan 2007 06:57:14 GMT

Michael J. Riddell & Myself.... Poor Kid was totally sick. Like the nose scrunching??

hahaha. Can you tell we were bored and procrastinating?

I always thought old school cartoons were cool!

I love asian haircuts! I think it works for me!

<3

P.S. Swimming at 1am, is soooo much fun! Everyone should give it a shot, especially with someone they care a lot about!

Have You Ever?

Thu, 25 Jan 2007 17:36:16 GMT

Have you ever just wanted to be held? Nothing sexual or anything like that, but just to be held by a significant other? I mean, why does everything nowadays have to be "Okay, we've got to go to point A, then in 30 minutes, point B, and then maybe if there is still enough time, we should hit points C,D,E,F and G"? I mean, don't get me wrong, sometimes those are really fun days, but in all honesty.... Is it really necessary to do that every day?

Is it too much to just get a reassuring look/glance, to know that, oh I don't know, they really care about you?

And I can't say squat, because how selfish am I? Asking for more of his time? Totally rates high on the selfish meter, don't you think? I think so.

So what can I do? Just be unhappy, or let it all go?

What if I don't like either choice?

Mon, 22 Jan 2007 17:16:37 GMT

Yay! My first experience with snow ever!!!!

It was soo much fun!

Grayson and I went out to eat, and along the way it started snowing!

We had to wait for our food, so i got to stand in the snow as it was snowing! How cool is that?

After dinner, I pegged him with lots of snow!

Went back to his dorm to help mike with his RA application...

Mike's car was covered in snow on the hood and the roof....

I scooped up all the snow and threw it at Grayson!

He was soaking wet.

I couldn't stop giggling and smiling. It was AWESOME!

Snow=The BEST!